If I’m being honest, I hate the holiday!
There, I said it.
I remember as a kid making different crafts, making breakfast for my mom, and doing things to let her know she was special and loved.
But it wasn’t only on Mother’s Day that I tried to do things like that.
When I became a mother, it wasn’t how I envisioned it would be, but I was excited nonetheless.
However, I was clouded by judgment, shame, and guilt about becoming a mom at a fairly young age.
My partner, who I thought would be my husband, turned into a monster. Me becoming a mother unleashed his hatred towards me.
It felt like my whole world changed.
Leaving an abusive relationship, I thought would improve my life. Actually, things got worse in so many ways.
Custody of my daughter was a given to my abuser and I didn’t feel like a Mother. I was so hurt, numb, lost, ashamed… all the dreams I had about being a mom where shattered.
So I never liked Mother’s Day. I was never really celebrated as a Mom, that holiday along with many others rubbed me the wrong way because it was a reminder of what was missing from my life.
The second time around with motherhood was super stressful. My partner wasn’t able to be present with me, there was a lot of drama and… let’s just say things didn’t go well.
When it comes to Mother’s Day, my girls have always made me feel special and I totally appreciate that. But there’s still a tender spot in my heart when it comes to how I’ve been treated as a mom.
The trauma that I’ve experienced as a mother is REAL… and it’s a topic that I look forward to discussing on the show and inside of ALCHEMY™ too so we can all embrace and embody Sacred Motherhood.
Over the years, I’ve come to be more open to the holiday, but look forward to a complete transformation where I feel comfortable embracing Mother’s Day as a Sacred Mother.
